March 2005

It looks like I have no choice but to move to Texas this summer... I wanted to go to South Florida to be with my people... Maybe my people will visit me in Texas... This internship is offering me $28 an hour for 12 weeks... $11200... That is more then I have ever earned in a year of work anywhere... I have mixed feelings about it... but I know my job in South Florida can't match that... I have never heard of an intern being paid that much... if I worked there forever it would be $56,000 a year... awesome... I am going to miss people though... but at least then if I don't get into the gaming schools, I can move to Orlando and live there with that money... I am really scared about life though... The company use to be owned by Motorola but recently spun off and so it is world wide and huge huge huge... I was told that I am going to get sucked into the company and never be able to leave because they will make offers that I cannot pass up... I just hope I like what they are having me do... I didn't mention above, but I also get medical and dental insurance...

Anyways, last night I was REALLY dizzy... for like 5 hours... so finally I just went to bed thinking I would be fine when I woke up... but I wasn't... I have never had problems like this, so it kinda freaked me out... I decided I'd go see the doctor since it was really bad... they gave me some medicine to stop dizziness and said if that doesn't help (since it could be anything from a virus to a brain tumor) that I need to come back in a few days... oh well, my show is on now so I have to go...

Labels: austin texas, freescale

Another week done, meaning 5 weeks from now I will be done with my Undergraduate... I am pretty scared... I don't know what I am going to end up doing with my life... The offer from Freescale, the company I interviewed with in Texas, sent me an offer and it should be here early next week... I am excited about it in some ways, but not in others... I hate Florida, so it would get me out of here, but unfortunately Texas is Florida with more Republicans and higher humidity... bummer... I am also scared because then I would have nobody... well, I have family there, but I would have no friends... Not the posse, or my friends from my other home (the Computer Science Majors lab)... I am going to ask Barry (Ken's IT guy) if he will match the offer for me to work there the whole summer so that I can spend my last real summer with friends. Moving away is just to much of an abrupt ending... I guess I shouldn't hang onto impossible hopes that one day I will be as happy as I once was... Luckily I have been too busy to be bothered by my feelings... too stressed about getting into gaming school and trying to figure out what exactly I am going to do with my life... Getting accepted to UCF helped my self esteem a little... not that FSU is bad or anything, but rumors have it that the IT department is going to take over it because not enough people want to get into it... The teacher are afraid of changing from what they are use to and won't teach us what we want to know, practical stuff... They tempt me to stay here with the whole 85-90% paid, plus $14,000/year, but I am not going to be bribed to stay somewhere when I really want to do something else (This is how I feel about that job in Texas too, if I have another opportunity, then I will probably pass it up, no matter how excited my family there is)

Anyways, on a different (nerdier) note, I am learning a lot about C and Java that I didn't know which is really exciting, I wish I could have learned it in school, but the teachers don't want to teach it, so I have to learn it myself... but considering I learned 90% of both those languages on my own, what is more going to hurt. Next weekend is the programming contest and my competition (Micah) some guy from the majors lab (Jacob) and I are all on a team... Micah can code in C damn well, and now that I am using it and getting use to it I might actually be more of a help then I thought I would be... Jacob said he is good at figuring things out, he just isn't the best programmer, so he can give us pseudo code and we can make it code... I hope we win so I can get Microsoft Software and also put it on my resume... as long as we get in the top 3 I would... hell, I might go to regionals this year (invited the last two years but turned them down because I wanted to be with Francisca) even though I know we wouldn't win, but at least I can program, which is the only thing I truly live for...

Tonight Micah had a birthday party that I went to, everyone there was a foreign exchange student from every freaking country in the world... it was pretty cool, it brought me back to Munich International School days... Anton was the only other CS person that showed up... Micah was lucky because I was paid 30 bucks by Mike (the other lab monitor) for covering for him for 3 hours... so I gave him $22.50 or something... I had spent some of it already... I hate carrying cash so I thought why the hell not... anyways, I want to throw a graduation party but I am not sure how many people from the department would actually show up to it, most people there I would consider "in school" friends, very few I would tell anything personal to... Only people I would think would hang out with me would be Kelley, Kerstin, Micah, Meat, Anton, and um maybe one or two other people that are always in the lab... If Erica, Christy (but she would never hang out because she is to much in love with her husband), or Tom, were still there they would be on the list too... and of course, I could be wrong about the above too, so yeah... who knows...

I am enjoying the Intelligent Systems face reorganization program that Micah, Kerstin and I are making... that is a lot of fun, it isn't due for another month and we already have all this cool shit that we don't need... yeah... We are going to kick team Bling's butt... mu ha ha ha ha... them and their "awesomeness factor" are going to be blown away... yeah, ok...

OH well, it is almost 2 so I should go to sleep, I left Micah's after 3 hours because I was so tired... but then I got carried away here... oh well, probably won't have anything to update for another month or two in my boring life... well, I guess next week I will get that letter thingy... but yeah... oh well...

Labels: acm, austin texas, diet, francisca amunategui, grad school, kelley jones, mike smith, programming, the posse

Well, I just checked my UCF application status online and it says I have been admitted... yay... pretty cool... this is not for the gaming school, only for the Computer Science department... which is still pretty cool... I see it as the best CS program in Florida, so that is exciting... and they actually PROGRAM there, which is something we sort of lack here at FSU... I am still in Homer, Louisiana... middle of nowhere... he he... I might head to tally tomorrow but I haven't decided yet... maybe I'll wait till Sunday...

Labels: florida state university, gaming, grad school, honey folts, papa folts, programming, tallahassee

Well, I am going to get an offer for the job! I should get a call with an offer in about 2 weeks... I don't know how much it will be, but hopefully it will be a lot B)... I will be able to pay for graduate school yippeeeeeee.... and I'll get to hang out with all my relatives here... which is really fun... I will learn a lot during the job too, if I take it... I am kind of scared moving so far away from friends, but I have to sometime... and considering I haven't seen any of my friends in months anyway, I don't think it will be much different... Oh well... pretty exciting...

Labels: grad school

Well, in about 3 hours I have an interview with Freescale, a company that use to be part of Motorola... My uncle works there and told me about an summer internship that I might want... So, I thought why the hell not, and I am going to try... They pay for relocation even... I don't know how much they plan on paying me yet, but if it helps pay for grad school, then yippee... I also applied to be a video game tester in Orlando for $8... that is with EA... that would be sweeeeeeeeeet... I get my foot into the video game industry... which is cool...

If I live here the whole summer then I could start looking for houses in Dallas in case I get accepted to SMU... I am kinda scared to move so far away, but the truth is I really have no reason not to... all I have to think about is myself, which is weird... I am really excited about the thought of it, even though I am scared too... I need to feel like I am at a different stage in my life, because I will be... I don't want to be stuck in the same lonely routine in Tallahassee...

I hope they think I am good enough to get into these gaming schools... I would work like crazy once I got in, the problem is getting in... at least everyone at SMU will remember me because they freaking announced that I drove all the way from Florida during the main presentation by the Director of the school... embarrassing... but oh well... I feel more qualified than the other people there sounded... none of them seemed to know anything about programming... they were all scared about having to program... and I was really really excited about it... Even if I didn't go into video games after graduating, I would be a SUPER DUPER programmer and be able to apply to other places as well... They would teach me a whole bunch of very useful things...

Next week, after my Algorithm's test, I am going to start programming like crazy and finish up my portfolio...

Guess what! I got a 104 on my first intellegent systems test... so now we are done with 50% of the course and I have like a 99.999999... which is sweet... I only need like 40%'s on the rest of the course work to pass... that is a fun class...

OH well, I have to start getting ready for the interview... so yeah... bye

Labels: electronic arts, freescale, gaming, grad school, kelly folts, tallahassee, undergrad, work