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I am going to Orlando tomorrow to see my uncle, Joe, and my friend Patti… I haven’t seen all of them in way to long… I haven’t seen my uncle since my Grandpa’s funeral 3 years and a week ago… I miss my grandpa… I never let myself think about him for more than like 3 seconds because I don’t want to start crying… I hate saying goodbye… I never have been good at it… I hate change in general… anyways… today it is my dad’s birthday… I didn’t get him anything… I am broke… I worked on my Aunt’s website that she is paying me to do… I love making websites… I wish I could get paid to do other people’s… If somebody pays for the site (yeah right) then I would make a Posse page… I found a service that I can make a post thing like this (this being livejournal posts)… just for the “Posse”… if you can still call it that… I am really not in a good mood… I am half way through the third Harry Potter book… I can’t put it down at night, I force myself to put it down and go to sleep… I don’t know why I am in such a bad mood right now… my heart feels heavy and I just feel like whining and pouting and yelling and screaming, etc… oh well… I’ll shut up now…